|Jillian on her tummy for the first time|
When I arrived at the NICU this morning their Dr. told me that Britian's morning x-ray was clear; her P.I.E. had resolved overnight. This is wonderful news but we are not totally in the clear. She will be sedated and paralyzed for the same number of days that she had the P.I.E. which in Britian's case means she won't be weaned from her sedation and paralysis meds until Sunday morning. This is of course assuming that it doesn't return and other issues do not pop up with her lungs in the meantime. It is so hard seeing my sweet baby paralyzed, trapped within her own body. I know she can't feel anything and is unaware of her comatose state but it is still tough. I want so badly to see her kicking her legs, grabbing my finger with hers, and stretching her chin out like only my kids can do. Very soon though I know, very soon.
Jillian has been having a great week. Nothing at all to report on her other than a possible room change. While this sounds promising and encouraging just the thought causes me pain. I want my girls to remain next door neighbors. The lower level NICU that Jillian could be moved to any day now is down the hall and around many corners. I will no longer be able to walk between their rooms or watch over one while I care for the other. I would love if they could move together to the lower level NICU but considering Britian's recent bout with P.I.E. I know that possibility is a pipe dream. Please continue to pray for Jillian, she has not put on any weight in 4 days. Also pray that while in the lower level NICU God will hand pick the best nurses to care for her and watch over her especially during the times that I can not be at her bedside. There is a higher nurse to patient ratio in the lower level NICU and this causes me some concern. I worry that her nurse will be occupied with another patient while she is in distress and no one will be there to come to her aid. Neurotic I know, but it is a Mom worry I have. I asked her Dr. to try and hold off until at least next week when I am here, of course he couldn't make any promises but said he would do his best to keep her here and move other patients before he moved Jillian. Who would have ever thought that 2 weeks ago the baby on her death bed would be moved before her otherwise healthier and stronger big sister? Certainly not me.